So I've started this blog and I'm putting myself out there, wholeheartedly. And it's a little scary. It's a risk, but it's what I want to do. It is something I feel like I need to do. But it's not the first time I've pushed myself to go out on a limb. My mommy-mush-brain is trying to recall some times when I've been brave and taken some risks. As I remember some of the interesting and impressive things I have done in the past I think, "Oh yeah, I've done that and that. Wow. Go me." But I have also noticed this pattern. I go from being super brave and confident to "oh, I could never do that" and back and forth. What is that about? Is that how it is for everyone? Now I feel as if I've been so wrapped up in mommy-mode that it's even harder to pull myself over to the point of confidence. I guess I get settled in a routine for a while then start to have periods of restlessness.
A good friend of mine recently had a revelation that she shared with me. She said something like, "Now that I'm thirty I don't feel the need to sugarcoat things anymore. I don't need to go out of my way for people to like me. You either like me or you don't. If you don't I can accept that." I can completely relate to where she is coming from. To expand on that thought, I am realizing I have a similar attitude towards risk-taking. I no longer need the approval from others for decisions that I make. Well, it helps things a lot when my husband is on board, but that is a different situation entirely. I'm talking about taking a deep look inside and doing what I need to do for myself and my family. Not just doing things I think I "should" do or what is expected of me. Sometimes a little risk-taking is necessary to get where we want to be in life. And ultimately I will charge forward and have confidence.
As the famous quote says, "Well-behaved women seldom make history."
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